I have been thinking of writing about the people who are living with depression for a long.2020 is getting worst day by day and two months back, sadly we were yet again touched by this traumatic loss(RIP Sushant Singh Rajput),and I feel compelled to write.
My brain runs constantly make it hard to focus and just be able to breathe. I am in a state of shock .when I read word depression it take me to the dark phase where I doubt the world have colors because depression is not easy nor is it a quick fix .Some days you feel good, great, even better and other days something small, a look from someone or a memory can turn you into a mess and when things seems too hard all you think they would be better off without you but NO it's not .
I know depression is not something which just disappear and one day you suddenly wake up and decide not to feel hopeless. But let me remind you that you are human. You have heart .You get hurt. It's OK to cry, it's OK to be weak .Take a break if you are tired of doing same thing or getting bored of your daily routine. Stop pretending what you are not. Forget about the world let them see your sad face. Pour your heart out. Look for people to talk who make you feel safe and cared. Try to keep up with social activities even if you don't like it around people you feel less depressed. Do what you love to do. Challenge your negative thoughts and fight back, because life is beautiful and worth living!
I can feel the pain of the family members who have lost a loved one. Who may be struggling with wanting to understand WHY this happened. I feel their heartache in my heart. I understand they are angry but if we see from the perspective of someone who dies by suicide they are burden to others, they believe that their existence caused pain. So their last selfless act is one or one of mercy to end suffering. That's the tragedy of suicide. Parents, siblings, loved ones feel lost like somebody has snatched everything in the blink of an eye and the world continues on like nothing has changed. Gradually they will find themselves normal, know that they will be ok. But it's going to hurt..... a lot and for a long time. There is no way around it and no way to avoid it but know that they can get through this loss.
A Request to the rest of the World
I know you are a mixture of judgement and disbelief. When you think about person is suffering from depression or when someone commit suicide. You never take such things seriously because you think your loved one would never do that ,great you have been lucky. It hasn't touched your world yet, but it will.
Social media is a network where family and friends can easily stay in touch. But social media is also misunderstood in so many ways. You all have your accounts in almost every social media platform are active but for their own benefits. And some are just following trend by creating their accounts ,they never make efforts to even respond to messages(forget about answering calls). May be somewhere someone needs you . I dont know where you all are so busy ,busy in racing to reach somewhere??? But where....you don't know. Dont be of herd mentality. I urge you to take out time from your so-called 'busy schedule' for well being of family and friends. Be kind ,talk to them because you can not tell by looking at someone if they are struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts.
“Suicide is just a cry for attention or a cry for help,” you may say. Maybe it is sometimes. That brave soul is fighting for their life! LISTEN TO THAT CRY! Help if you can.
Take care of your loved ones.
